You know, you are actually very fragile.
Not just your stomach issues. You tend to believe in people and it just does not work in Hong Kong.
I know. Believe me, I know.
As much as I can see the world in all its beauty, there are those days where I lose that ability.
There will always be those who just come to you to complain.
There will always be those who want to take advantage of you.
There will always be those who want to see you fail.
It is just more rampant in Hong Kong.
How many of these so-called acquaintances hit me up right after they find out I am single?
Hey, do you want to come to my house for drinks?
No. Please stop texting me.
No. Please don’t send me nudes.
No. Please stop talking.
I can only be polite and courteous for a short period of time.
Which is why, I just want someone to tell me to move.
Say the word and I will fly.
You once asked me, what I liked about you.
You were the only person in a long time that asked nothing from me.
You are the only person I cannot figure out.
Your walls are the only ones I cannot break.
You are also one of the only ones who knows exactly what to do when I am lost in the dark.
You keep running, for what? For freedom.
Yet, you yearn to be caged. A home, if you will.
That’s a bit convoluted, don’t you think?
It’s not the loneliness that gets to me.
It’s just getting infinitely difficult to find the good in people.
How deep do I have to dig?
Rather, should I just stop trying?
These contact lens always makes my eyes look so teary.
Decided to do a clean reset to my GI tract by taking laxatives to flush everything out.
Then we do an elimination diet starting with just bananas, congee and fruit vinegar since I have low stomach acid.
I will also have to cut back on the fibre, eliminate caffeine, sugar, carbonated water and probiotics.
Since my IBS affects my muscle contractions, I got magnesium and potassium supplements to help regulate it.
Time for rehab.
Wish me luck.